What taught you that that was a normal Way of like life well I didn't think it Was a normal way of life but I didn't Want a normal life you're a very clean Person just in general I'm neat I would Spending very a lot of effort to not Make a mess I wouldn't have to clean so I would like eat over the sink the same Cup dude it works fine and then I had All the animal pictures on the wall of Like and killing and attack positions Because like I was really hardcore at The time like more than I am now and I Was just like I always want to be Reminded that I'm either the predator of The prey for me it was like I didn't Want to work or whatever I was just like Everything around me was like keep going I was very much in the like I have to Grind I have to work a lot